November 1-12

So, this month I made it a point to start being a better version of myself.  I have adventure goals, fitness goals, and just kind of want to carry on without a heart attack or some other bullshit preventable thing.  Here’s what’s been happening:

  • Haven’t had any pop (soda) at all
  • Limited alcohol intake and reduced it drastically
  • Exercised more often – found a new route to to even if it’s dark when I get home
  • Reduced daily caloric intake below or at 2000 calories
  • Stopped eating fast food
  • Eliminated deep fried food, pretty much
  • Reduced sodium intake
  • Tracked my food
  • Started taking Metamucil twice per day
  • Started taking the stairs to my 5th floor office – no elevator at all

I’ve been eating relatively boring foods but I’ve had a few treats in there.  I’ve always failed before because I was taking everything that was good away or going to extremes one way or another.  This time, I’m allowing some bad things if I’ve earned them and/or they are within my daily/weekly goals.  Nothing too bad, though.  I’m talking a KIND bar or glasses of wine/good beer.  I’m eating vegetables like crazy, fruits, and drinking enough water to fill a pond.


  • I’m down 6lbs
  • My pants fit better
  • The stairs weren’t as bad
  • My poops are good
  • My gut is good

I’ve got a 5k – that I’ll be mostly walking – on Saturday and at the end you get some pints of beer.  Then, we are doing a night of fun and a “Friendsgiving” on Sunday with tons of food.  The goals: stay aware of what I eat, don’t indulge TOO much, and try to go for a walk after the meal.


Same story, different day.

Big shout out to a few coworkers and Instagram friends that are inspiring.

I’ve been maintaining my weight over the past few weeks – kind of.  I haven’t been exercising very much, and I’m kind of a human garbage disposal these days when it comes to food.  We had set up a challenge at work and I’ve been bombing at it on the daily.  I’m always making excuses – it’s too hot to exercise, I’m eating out with friends, I’m at a family barbecue, it’s vacation, I didn’t go grocery shopping, etc. – as to why I can’t eat well or exercise.  They are all bullshit, I know this, but this is the first time in a while I’m admitting it again.  I’m supposed to be on week five of ‘Couch 2 5K’ training and I’m not.  Tonight I fly to Portland, OR to join my other half and tomorrow we begin our drive home, so I’m sure it’ll be a mixed bag of junk/fast food and a lot of inactivity.  I’m hoping to get a couple of miles in at the Redwoods and then a little in at Sequoia on Saturday.  I’m hoping I can focus my motivation next week and get back on track.  I’m hoping I can use the inspiration I find in others and the beauty of what lies ahead (Redwoods, Sequoia, Utah in a week, etc) to ignite the flame.

I need to get back to weekly meal planning and prepping – which means regular grocery shopping.  I need to stop restrictive diets such as low-carb – which means increasing veg and still avoiding refined crap.  I need to eat more of a balance and I need to eat in moderation.  I need to continue my daily water intake, and add more.  I need to limit booze and diet soda, as well as calming my coffee consumption.  I need to go to sleep earlier and build a consistent schedule – and shut my brain off to fall asleep.  I need to hike further on the weekend and build up my endurance – and exercise more between weekly hikes.  I know what I need to do.

I’ve covered this before, many times, and I always hope it’ll be the last time I have to write a stupid blog post – either in private or public – about this lame ass struggle.  I go through phases in regards to how healthful I am.  I go on about my health or happiness, the vanity, or the things I want to do that require me to be a little more in shape and a little less sluggish.  I know what I need to do, but I always give up before I do it.  I’m a planner by nature, so one would think creating a plan and sticking to it would be right up my alley, but I give up too easily.  I can plan all day every day, but I rarely energize enough to follow through with the plan.

Blah, blah, blah.  I know, here we go again.  I need to get over that I don’t live somewhere beautiful.  I need to move past that I will have a slow transition and results take time to show up.  I need to accept that I’m not currently on a healthy path and find the willpower to change direction.

Iced Coffee…hold the HWC.

It’s been too long.

Today I’m getting back on track with – at the very least – tracking my food, avoiding quick food from shitty places, and eating less.

I brought a big ass salad for “lunch” tonight, some grapes as a side, an apple, and sting cheese – I have no desire to eat any of it on account of how bloated I feel from the past week or two.

Part of the 6 Month plan the partner and I set up was for me to be able to run a 5k.  I’m going to start that when the rain isn’t falling… 4 weeks to a mile, then 6 to a 5K so 10 weeks or so total – depending how often I need to repeat.

Part of our immediate financial plan within the 6 Month plan was to reduce spending and save even more than I already was… so, planning meals and eating out less will help with reaching that goal.

I guess I can start staying after at work and using the gym, one good thing about working here.  I hate the gym and working out indoors, but it’s available for free so why not?

I’m on my second 30 oz glass of water for the evening – hydration is something I’ve been lacking and it also keeps me awake… and with the AC not working in our section of the floor, I need ICE COLD water to prevent death.

Anyway, this is the plan… no extremely low carb, no extremely high fat, no extreme anything.  Everything in moderation, which usually means far less sweets and booze.  Sugar really doesn’t work well with my body, and I’m aware of this.  Hopefully, with a reduction in my sugar intake, my body will hate me less.

Moment of clarity.

Instead of forcing a no-carb or low-carb diet, I’ve decided to just eat all the fruit and veg I want.  I’m tracking all my food, kind of just to see what’s what and help me stay accountable for portions, but just cutting out the restrictions.  If I have a sandwich, I have one and we move on.  Keeping it below or around 2000 calories a day and keeping it fresh and mostly healthy will be the winner, right?  I just can’t go on without certain things and the more I read, the more I realize it’s way less effective.  So, I’ll have tons of salads, some things with unnecessary sugar, and maybe a few beers and I won’t beat myself up over it. I don’t want to sit and eat 5 donuts or cookies, but if I want some whole grains or rice I’m not going to be a whiny bitch about it.  Everything in moderation – hence the tracking. Now, to motivate an exercise plan…

My Success.

The only way I am going to continue to get healthier is if I continue on the path I’ve started.

  • Tracking everything I eat in MyFitnessPal religiously (Even going out, many nutrion facts are available on the website or by estimating to get the general idea)
  • Avoiding dinner or lunch out to places I know will tempt me to overeat
  • Drinking an abundance of water throughout the day
  • Exercising at least 4 times per week
  • Avoiding booze and indulging with mindfulness
  • Maintaining a limit for daily caloric intake
  • Earning extra calories by doing more strenuous cardio
  • Keeping “bad foods” out of the house
  • Doing this for me, and only me
  • Rewarding myself with cheese – it really works for me
  • Knowing that I will be better in health, in activities, and in size
  • Setting a cheat day – I know many people say cheat days are evil, but I think a reward is in order for good behavior.*
  • Talking to others and motivating one another

*I had a cheat day on Easter Sunday and I have to say I wasn’t ready for it.  I lost control and I had too much cake instead of a modest portion.  This is how I know I need to set the next one further in advance and plan it a little better.  I am hoping to be “good” through spring and allow myself some cheats in the summer when road tripping and visiting family.  I’m a firm believer that once I get the portions under control, I’ll be able to shift to allow for more variety in my diet.  Right now, I’m trying to control my urges to binge and since 2/17 I’ve been extremely successful with the exception of Easter (even then, the total intake for the day was not as bad as it could have been)

Just knowing that my clothes are fitting better already and my face is much more adorable is helping me realize it can be like this ALWAYS.  Thank you to anyone that has shared their secrets to success, a kind word, or just lets me babble on about this.  It’s a big deal for me.




Down 35.2 lbs today total.

Since starting this job, I’ve done nothing but lose weight.  I think the combination of controlling my portions, nutrition, and fitness with the reduction in stress from not having a job have really worked in my favor.

The job is fine, tedious, but fine.  It isn’t a resume booster of any kind really, and it has nothing to do with what I’d like to be doing – but it is something I can do well with and maybe that will lead to something bigger and better like it did before.  Here’s to hoping.

Tonight, I begin my last “night” shift and start my seven days off in the morning.  I am so excited, but the days already have so many damn plans.  First off, laundry.